There once was a time when I was having trouble letting others in on what I was going through in my life. I feared what others would think of me, and even more, what they would say. The problem was, I wouldn’t even let my wife in on what was stirring inside me. After a while, it began to wear on me. The weight of my problems began to fill me up on the inside and eventually leave no room for the person I was created to be.

I had a friend once tell me, ” letting people in is a tough leap, but worth the fall if it becomes your flight.” I needed my wife more than ever by my side and I was pushing her away. I needed to have faith in God’s design for my marriage. That my wife was not only my partner and lover, but my best friend and that she would stick by me through it all until God calls us home.

I feared being alone when I haven’t been. I feared mistreatment when I have been treated better than deserved. I feared that I would go unloved when I have been loved unconditionally. I lacked faith in God’s design. I lacked confidence in who He had placed in my life to help me through it.

Jumping off the safety of the ground into a world of uncertainty was a leap of faith. A leap I’m glad I finally took. Even though the beginning of the leap looked like a fall, it turned into a flight I couldn’t have dreamed would be so incredibly graceful and so satisfying to my soul.

Isaiah 40:31 “but those who hope in the Lord
    will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
    they will run and not grow weary,
    they will walk and not be faint.”

Trust in God’s design for your relationship with your spouse and watch your marriage soar. If you are having a hard time trusting your spouse, pray for them. Pray for strength through it. God will show you what you need to do. It may seem like forever, but He always answers. It may be what you least expect or even, at the time, the answer you least desire. Through it you will be shaped and molded into the person that can withstand the pressures the world puts on us to act their way. And remember, God will be with you through the fall and He will give you the grace you need to help you soar.

The moment I let others in, was the moment I began to experience grace. When I let my wife in I experienced what it means to soar.